Modern Psalmist Plea

Dear LORD-

Have mercy on your wayward servant.
I feel a soul crushing depression weighing heavy on my shoulders.

Have you not already conquered the grave and redeemed me?

Why am I persecuted in spirit?

You have blessed beyond measure.
People not not have power over me, not even myself.

You have saved me.

You have rescued me. Why must I feel that I need reassurance of that constantly?

Where are your walls and healing arms?

I beg forgiveness for my hard heart and lack of faith.

I need your grace today to function.

Though I am undeserving, your grace is sufficient for me.

LORD, I seek.
LORD, I ask.
LORD, I knock.

Father, I can not conquer this on my own.

I feel locked into uselessness- help me rise above this into victory.
Freedom.

I long for freedom from this oppressive depression.

I'm tired of the self-defeating monologue in my head.
Help silence the noise.

Deliver me from the depths in your name sake.

Forgive my doubting Thomas ways, and my last effort pleas.

May I put you first, my I lean on YOU first.

Help me move through this and be an example.

May your name be exalted upon the Earth.
Amen.