Rant

Ok, so not even 7 days on a liquid diet (some of which I couldn't even hold down for the first few days) allowed me to lose even a pound of weight... That's right- I had my tonsils out, and despite it being a horrible experience, one of which I'm glad I won't have the opportunity to go through again... one of the side effects is that you can't eat solid food for days and days.... which means people report losing like 10lbs or more....sigh. Didn't work for me. I had that hope to hold on to (I mean no one actually GETS their tonsils out just to lose weight, but its a nice perk...) and that quickly faded away. So, hmmmm... nothing is wrong with my thyroid or other blood levels at least at first glance..... perhaps I just need more exercise? When? Where? What? Exercsise is a double edged sword...when you start after a long hiatus, you feel even more fat and uncomfortable....so it takes a while before it actually starts feeling good.... I've stopped and started so many times that just thinking about those first few days of realizing how fat one has gotten and how uncomfortable it is to exercise is a turn off and really kills my motivation to even WANT to start anything. And so I'm stuck completely disappointed in myself for my lack of motivation to figure out this weight thing..... I know BMI scales aren't all they are cracked up to be, but according to it, I need to lose 55lbs in order to be in the healthy weight range.... What a daunting number. I don't think I'll even see close to that number for a while....there's no way I can lose that much before we want to have kid number 2.....so looks like I"ll just have to put that off for another year or 2....so dissappointing...

Anyway just had to rant about how not even a tonsilectomy gave me a jump start on any weight loss....grrrrr..