About 8 weeks ago I was thinking to yet again try a diet, or some sort of lifestyle change to manage the ever encroaching bulge. The scale keeps going up. I have cut down on carbs and especially gluten since Nov. 08. Still nothing. I was on a liquid diet for 14 days because of my tonsil surgery, and I lost nothing. Infact, I saw the scale creep up after I could actually eat food again. And now here it is, at a higher set point. Enough is enough. I've gone through so much negative self- talk- I'm so lazy yadda yadda yadda. I can't stand myself in pictures etc. If only I would.......dot dot dot, fill in the blank... then I would be thinner.... A fool is someone who does the same thing over and over again expecting different results. So a couple of weeks ago, I started on a venture with my friend from home, Jess, into the realm of Jillian Michaels from the Biggest Loser- the 30 day Shred. After a week of it (it really got me going) I was talking to my boss and finally decided to see an endocrinologist and have things checked out (again). I had my thyroid etc looked at Spring '08, but everything came back normal. Time to recheck things. So after a 3 hour lab visit (they did a glucose tolerance test with several hour follow ups....) along with other measures. The results? I was diagnosed with Insulin Resistence Syndrome. It means that I pump out too much insulin. My glucose was fine, it means that my body is managing that, but my triglycerides were high, another result of the high insulin. My cholesterol was fine as well. Finally, a cause for my tiredness and fogginess. Finally a cause for my inability to lose weight DESPITE diet efforts.....
After this news I signed up for a Boot Camp. That's right, I"m getting up at the buttcrack of dawn (5:15) to head to the tennis courts by the HS to start a work out with 25-35 other people at 5:45am-7am where we get our butts kicked into gear 4 days a week. Ouch. I'm on week 3, the pain has ebbed, and my knees are finally feeling better. I know this is healthy for me, but I can't get over how much IT SUCKS! But this is a life long thing, something that I will always have to keep in check, meaning I'm going to have to make massive exercise part of my daily routine. Period. The general recommendation is for 30 min 5 days a week. The recommendation for me is 45-60 min 6 days a week. How the heck am I going to incorporate that into my life after boot camp? I don't know yet. At this moment, I just need to find something I like to do- or life is going to be reeeeeeeaaaaaally long and unpleasant.
Sigh. BUT, the bright side is, there is a reason I am feeling the way that I am, and its not because I'm lazy!! WHAHOO!
Time to focus on today.
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